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I am pretty sure that summer needs to come faster. I am sick and tired of sleeping in class, trying to listen to teachers that cant teach, snow, rain, etc. I need sun and i need my boredom to kick in. Yes, i'd rather be bored than staring at a teacher because you have to.

I love the sun and i love traveling, and i love making money so i can spend it all on iTunes, and i love frying myself at amusement parks. I love rampaging tourists to laugh at. I love waking up when the dream is done. Not getting interrupted by a stupid alarm clock. I want the sunsets, not homework. I love doodling on a paper and realizing its actually a work of art. not the small little crap doodles you do in math class that just make you giggle. i love making albums from lists of music that you love, and then doing all of the cover artwork and all that good stuff. I love going to midnight showings and staying up all night because you can. not because you have a project due next day. I want to lay down on my cold grass and read a cheesy love story. I want to make a good mix of the killers and muse, and drive for nine hours up to Washington and spend days antique shopping and hanging with my cousins. I want to get a good camera and take pictures. i want to go to Oregon and Seattle where the city is beautiful and you can take pictures to your hearts desire. i want the freedom of this country and not the chains of school. I want to buy a guitar and teach myself how to play. i want summer!!!!!!!!!

~Expresso

Stupid Mind BLOCK!!! Arg! Prepare to Meet Thine DOOOMM!!

     Swimming. Tis a wondrous past-time, hobby, lifestyle, and career. IF only it could be my career! Ah that would be so super amazingly wonderful! BUT.... Life doesn't work that way I suppose.
     Pretty much anyone can learn to swim. A few less can learn to swim competitively. Even fewer can swim competitively and do well enough to stand out. Only the elite stand out enough that they are chosen for various amazing colleges, clubs, and maybe even the Olympics!  Some may think that swimming is all physical. I'd have to slap some sense into those people.  Swimming is all in your mind.  If you think you are going to race horribly then you will FOR SURE drown in the water and embarrass yourself.  Once you start to think big thoughts and imagine yourself as a super pro athlete who can swim anything and do some major poneing, that is when you will start to swim like a star. 
    This past year I have started to really try and get in the correct mind-set for being amazing. It is so hard to do! Of coarse I've been swimming hard and lifting weights, ect, (though I have been doing water polo in the mornings instead of swimming) and basically I've been trying to be physically fit, but really.... I think I have a mind block.  Like when I sprint a simple 50, I can feel that I could go harder and much faster, but it's like my mind puts a wall right in front of me so that when I swim I keep hitting it and I can't go faster and farther.  I'm now determined to destroy that silly wall.  I want to be amazing and I don't want to let anything get in my way.  Even school seems trivial to me compared to swimming.  Of coarse I keep straight A's and I want to keep them that way throughout highschool, but, gosh, swimming is on my mind! It is like a disease. But I want to catch it and I want it to pull my farther into the swimming mind-set.
    Speaking of diseases, nonclothitus. I don't care if it isn't a "real" disease. It is to me and Expresso. Basically it's a disease (mainly infecting swimmers) where they just don't want to wear clothes! My swimsuit is just perfect, and anything more than maybe flip flops and a towel feel like too much. Of coarse I get cold and have to wear clothes, plus it's kinda against dress code regulations to wear my suit to school :D (laughlaugh) I wish I could though.
    It's time to be a swimmer.